Do not look forward to what may happen
tomorrow; the same everlasting Father who cares
for you today will take care of you tomorrow and
every day. Either He will shield you from suffering,
or He will give you unfailing strength to bear it.
Be at peace, then. Put aside all anxious thoughts and
imaginations, and say continually: “The Lord is my
strength and my shield. My heart has trusted in Him
and I am helped. He is not only with me but in me,
and I in Him.”
Today is our genetics and ENT appointments; tomorrow is pediatrician and then another meeting with the Clark school and the city to discuss her services. I just got off the phone with the school and was told her treatment will be 2x a week every week across the city and uptown. Well…… this is making our plans for day care close by really tough. Clark doesn’t do home visits so we’ll be figuring that out soon. It’s kinda far -up on the upper east side so we’re going to start getting really comfy on the bus and commuting. None of this is to complain, just to admit to myself that this feels overwhelming. When my baby girl deserves to be just playing and laughing and pulling on her puppy’s ears, but instead we’ll be spending our playtime heading all over the city. I know, I know… it’s all for her and for the best and it’s important. Of course. I found the prayer above online and loved it b/c it doesn’t allow me to throw myself a pity party. I know that sounds pathetic that I’d even consider it….. it’s just hard sometimes.
Today may we face these appointments and whatever news we may hear with strength and courage. The love I have for Landon knows no bounds, so when I feel weak, her little face will be the light I need to smile again and keep moving forward.