Five.

Dear Landon,

Today, you turned five. FIVE! This morning as you climbed in my bed at 6am sharp, and snuggled your little body next to mine, I hoped aloud that you would always want to start your days that way.

This past year has been full of incredible experiences and seminal moments for you and our new family. You have surpassed toddler-hood and entered kid-dom, yet you will still excitedly grab older toys or books and proclaim that they’re from “when you were a baby.” This year you’ve continued to conquer making new friends and now keeping old friends. Your burgeoning confidence has emerged, propelling you forward in your little classroom. You began playing soccer, learned to swim, and are mastering the balance beam at gymnastics. You fell more in love with Star Wars and discovered there might be another Disney character besides Elsa to love. You still carry small toys with you most everywhere you go- from Troll dolls to My Little Ponies, Moana and sometimes C3PO. Yet still, your love and devotion to Lenny the lamb is paramount.

Most of all, you and I celebrated our love of two others this year. You once again became someone’s daughter- an adoring stepdaughter to Eric. And of course, you formally became a sister. I say “formally”because you and Anna have behaved as such since you first met one another. You love so easily, sweet girl, and our growing little family is also made to laugh and delight in your jokes, dance moves and hilarious stories.

As I similarly have reflected in each of your birthday letters thus far, your spirit and love have inspired me to become active in helping raise awareness for rare syndromes and hearing loss. This gift, one inspired by your spirit and beauty, has made me realize my true self. Your determination, courage, intelligence and quick wit prove to me and countless others that people should never underestimate you or anyone else with a syndrome or hearing loss. You proudly maneuver through everything with your bahas and operate them almost all on your own now. I am so proud to be your mother.

May you always continue to be as unique, generous, loving and determined. You are my light. You are my joy.

“I carry your heart. I carry it in my heart.”

I love you, sweet girl. Always. 

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